a return

I was near home after another training ride through some of my old haunts and thought i should stop in and say hi to Mr B. I hadn't seen him for years, certainly not since his wife died. I was surprised to see G there. As soon as i stepped in i sensed their sadness and was surprised when G offered me to go to his mum's room and see her ashes. We talked for a while and i made to leave, not really sure i needed to see her urn, felt honoured that G offered but unsure. "You were going to show me her ashes..." I said
He took me upstairs and showed me to her old room, and quietly retreated
I felt a wave of grief as i entered , deep and strong
took me by surprise
more than i would have been able to handle, once
but i let it wash over me and let my Spirit be with theirs, their Spirits be mine
even for just a moment

and her ashes in a little box
that could not, does not
contain her