On dec 15, about 6 months ago, I was in a little town in Mexico, with a cold I couldn’t seem to shake off. I was on a solo, single-speed bike tour, towing a BOB trailer. I thought I had ridden my bike to the limit of agony before. I nearly rode to death, literally.
I went to a clinic where I learned my blood level was dangerously low. And that I might die. Shortly after I walked in the on-call doctor, razor-sharp, took one look at me and said "we need to run some tests but from looking at you i can tell you you are seriously ill: hepatitis, AIDS or cancer i'd say" !!! I decided I couldn’t die there, so far from my mother. I couldn’t do that to her. Within 30 hours I was with her again. At Llandough Hospital A&E. The effort it took to get back to Cardiff, physical, logistical, emotional was more than I could have imagined.
After overcoming that hurdle plus the ensuing diagnosis and gruesome treatment, it’s hard to imagine that I ever had problems before or ever will again. This experience has given me a whole new appreciation for each day that I’m still here. “Living each day as if it were your last” doesn’t sound like a worn-out cliché anymore. Funny, that.
I do feel amzingly better. Musing on cancer yesterday, while waiting to be seen by the doctor...
i would never have wished for it, but now i'm grateful i got cancer. odd, i know. it brings a whole new appreciation for life, and the boundless opportunities that are always there for You, me and everybody. apart from the physical stimuli of the senses, which i took for granted, and now seem wondrous. a previously unimaginable awareness of Spirit.
i found out yesterday that my haemoglobin (Hgb) is now up to 16.6 g/dL!! (normal is 13.8 to 18.0). hoorah!
having been as low as 5, i hope i never forget what it felt like to tow a trailer on my bike in the Mexican mountains with such a low Hgb, grinding into dust!
rather than take any personal pride it feels me with wonder at indomitable universal Spirit
i would never have wished for it, but now i'm grateful i got cancer. odd, i know. it brings a whole new appreciation for life, and the boundless opportunities that are always there for You, me and everybody. apart from the physical stimuli of the senses, which i took for granted, and now seem wondrous. a previously unimaginable awareness of Spirit.
i found out yesterday that my haemoglobin (Hgb) is now up to 16.6 g/dL!! (normal is 13.8 to 18.0). hoorah!
having been as low as 5, i hope i never forget what it felt like to tow a trailer on my bike in the Mexican mountains with such a low Hgb, grinding into dust!
rather than take any personal pride it feels me with wonder at indomitable universal Spirit
